I am not in the right state of mind to think.
Due to my own negligence, I now drive with an expired road-tax. In fear or any police/JPJ roadblocks.
I want to lose my temper and break things, but that's not right to do and I am not ought to do it.
What I feel like doing doesn't necessary go with what I am ought to do, and at the same time I want to do what I am ought to do, I just don't feel like doing what I am ought to do and go ahead without hesitation to do what I am not ought to do.
And now I really want to do is cry and hide a hole where no one will find me.